It has been quite awhile since the last time I felt this way. I even thought it was high time to modify my blog header into something more positive like " ... ramblings of a girl who has discovered herself" or something more catchy. However, that may not happen for quite sometime. Sad to say but I am back to square one.
A close friend has noticed that my usual cheerful aura has been replaced by a gloomy one; my usual talkative self has been silent; and my smile has been missing for days.
"Smile uyy ... sayang ang imong beauty.", she said.
" Aha kaha ng beauty ha oi?", I replied.
" Look at the mirror.", she answered.
" Dili ko makatrust sa ako judgement kay wala ko makit-an na confirmation." I found myself answering back.
Why? What happened?
Nothing drastic happened actually. I'm just tired. I'm gaining back the pounds I have lost the past 2 years. And though I am still in denial, my almost healed heart is again experiencing bouts of pain.
I feel ugly and unwanted.
*sigh*
