It's now or never

I have this tendency of falling "in crush" so easily that it has become a habit. ;)) If I remember it right, I had my first crush at the age of five (a mere K1 girl getting giggly over a cute K2 boy).:D The guy doesn't have to be "makalaglag panty" handsome. In fact, someone close to me commented that I have a weird taste in guys; and that the word cute has an entirely different meaning for me. But that's not the main point of this entry ... it's something related to that.

Well you see, in the six years I've been working for X company, I have had a crush on a number of my colleagues and interestingly, most of them are not with the company anymore. First there's D who resigned barely three months after I was hired. Then R who left half a year later. Two years after that, it was followed by A who not only left the company but also totally changed his vocation. (Hey, I didn't make him do that okay.:D ) And then came another A, J, another R, and ... hhmmmm, I wonder why L is still around.=)) I remember mommie-boss, who knows the story of my life, asking me (jokingly) not to have a crush on new R coz he's good and it will be a loss if he followed suit.:D

For the past months, I've not been interested in anyone within the workgroup. Why? Let me see ...

1) The higher people may learn about the curse and get me fired me for that. (Hey, don't blame it on me! It's not me ... it's you.) (lol):D

2) There's no one cute and interesting enough who caught my attention. (Actually, there's ... never mind. Afraid that the mere idea might cause him to leave.) hihihi!:D

3) I have been busy with my career; I haven't had the chance to look around. (Duh!)

4) Guys, who are single and available, are just too young for me. (Yep, manang na ako ng mga tao dito. Pero pwede pa rin mapagkamalang 24 pa lng.) :D


Whether its just coincidence or not, it kinda freaked me out a bit. But who cares ... each one was fun while it lasted. (^.^)

Just recently, three close friends of mine left the world of singlehood. Another one is scheduled to walk down the aisle next month. Everyone I know (who's around my age) is either married (some with kids) or planning to get married soon ... except me.

Well, we have this joke among us friends -- kailangan na lang daw sumulpot yung groom sa araw ng kasal ko. Yep ... not having a groom-to-be doesn't stop me from envisioning the kind of wedding I want. I would really like to have the ceremony in a not-so-big church, a chapel perhaps, with a long aisle for me to walk on; and flowers ... the place will be filled with lots of flowers. It would be nice if all our family and friends will be there to share our special moment and witness our vows of love and commitment to each other. For the motif, my pick right now is something close to copper-bronze or gold-bronze; but this may change (depends on what's in during that time). Songs? That I haven't decided yet, though I have a few songs in mind for the bridal march. For the memento (video and photos), I want to get the best which means I need to start saving now coz they're really expensive. As for the reception, the food should be great and the program entertaining. I want everybody to enjoy the party, have fun and leave the place with a smile on their face and that "I'm glad I came." feeling. (Of course, my partner will have a say on everything.)

By the way, I already have a month and day in mind ... the only thing that is missing is the year. (hahaha! crazy girl!) :D

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Here are some pics taken during the weddings of Cha (July 3, 2004) and Gailee (July 10, 2004).

chary & dave



gail & bernard

Just received a great news -- a friend of mine just got a new job  (with a very good company) and I am sooooo happy for him.  I 've been praying for him to find work coz  he's been down and frustrated the past months.  (Thanks for another answered prayer! You're indeed great!)
 
 
Ei, you've been given another chance (a very good one pa!) ... do make the best out of it.  And you better hone your bisaya.  The limited ones you know (which are better left unsaid) won't take you anywhere.  See you around when I get back! (^.^)v

２８歳になったんだ。わぁぁ．．．ちょといやな感じがする。どうしてかと言うと、ほとんどの同い年の友達はもう結婚しているか、今年か来年に結婚する予定がある。子供がいる友達もたくさんいる。私．．．恋人もいなくて、自分がかわいそうだと思ったんだぁ。

そんなにいやなの、私のこと？だれも私のことを好いてくれないの？別に美人じゃないけどブスでもないわ。私がいると楽しいと友達によく言われる。”デスさんは面白い人！”、もうなんかいも聞いた。それはいいんじゃないか？

”心配するな！きっと来るからね。”、友達たちによく言われた。本当なの？これは心配するものじゃないかなぁ。ある友達は独身の生活のこと（ｓｉｎｇｌｅ－ｂｌｅｓｓｅｄｎｅｓｓ）を深く考えた、私に聞いた。独身の生活．．．想像しただけでもいやになる。自分の家族が欲しいわ。自分の子供を抱きしめたいわ。今は独身の生活を考えたくない。

あと２年．．．３０だ！

... I'm beautiful ... and I can get any guy I want!" -- these words were uttered by someone totally wasted. Wasted to the point that one could not remember how one was able to take a bath and change clothes (with a sprained ankle) before going to bed. Yep ... I have never been more drunk in my whole life than I was the other night. (Hey, it doesn't mean I am lasenggera ha ... I'm what you call an occasional drinker.) It's just that it was my birthday celebration and I had a few drinks too many that there are incidents (retold by friends who witnessed the whole thing) I couldn't remember no matter how hard I try. (@_@)

To my friends, thanks for everything -- for listening to my senseless ramblings, for patiently answering my meaningless and repetitive questions, for making sure I wouldn't do sillier stuff, for watching over me and seeing to it that no one would see me in my naked glory, or for simply holding my hand.

I won't promise it will not happen again (mahirap magsalita ng patapos ... coz its bound to happen again sooner or later =) ). Just remember that if you need a hand to hold, I will gladly be there to comfort and give you a hug. Love yah all. (^.^)w